hoolahoop around the gym just to get a peak again. she's a ten.

you know them kids who are the biggest jerks and the biggest players and those guys you just can't seem to get over even though you know that your life would be eternally better if you did?? well i got one of them. and i really think that i am officially over him. i know i have said it many a times but honestly i think its true. and you know im okay with that because he is a girl pleaser he says things you wanna hear the way you wanna hear them and even now i doubt that he didnt mean every word he said. but in my heart i know that he isn't right for me. me and Jesus have been working on getting over him well mainly me but now that Jesus is involved im not surprised to be over him. and you know what im not gonna let this get me down because you know now that im okay with getting married im starting to realize that may never happen. so for now i'll stop being a girl and get over ol boy! then maybe i can focus on more important things like cuter boys! haha =] anyway i wish him and his girl well. (i know right he has a girl and everything.) i was just played i have been played before that and will probly be played again but not by the same boy. =] love you guys!! oh and please dont go throwing that word around loving someone and being in love with them are two different things. =] night!!

soldier time.

oh man my cousin is going to Iraq! prays for him please.

im moving.

into my new room!! haha got ya! not that far yet!! but still kaykay your gonna have to come check it out it took me a full two hours and im almost completly finished!! ntways saw chaseup and his mother at target and then went and saw my boys at the mall!! it was a good day! love you guys!! sleep is calling me angrily!! =]

time bomb

i am just soo frustrated. i know what God wants me to do in my life for him but i don't know how to accomplish it. i really am feeling lead to start this career but i don't know how. and i know my parents say that they'll back me with whatever it is but they mean locally. i dont know im just waiting. One day i'm breaking out but for now i am stuck in my own personal pergatory. but its whatevs. good night all. hope your dreams are happy!

oh the turkeys

happy thanksgiving!!!!
tomorrow me and my aunt are going shopping in the early A.M. hours!! we might go start a line at midnight in front of goodies and target!! yay!! ive never been shopping the day after thanksgiving cuz my mommy doesent like that day for shopping! but we are going tomorrow!!!! :)
i think there is something wrong with me. my stomach hurts and feels like its gonna pop every time i eat no matter what or when i eat. Then i get dizy and my head hurts a lil and i get all tired.

VW Bugs and windsheild wipers

dude.
life makes me happy.
=]

last night i was praying about this one kid and so i opened my bible and i read three different passages about staying single and how its better so i have accepted the possibility of staying single forever and ever. which wouldn't be so bad. im still struggling to get over this kid for good but its working cuz im leaning on Jesus and i love it! I was shaking and mad and stressed and everything and i went to the bathroom before my chemistry test which i knew i wouldnt be able to focus on then and i just started singing and praying and it lessened quite a bit. Then i was able to focus on my test alot more and i know in the back of my mind that he isnt right for me right now at least and now we are just trying to convince my body and the front of my mind! haha love you guys play practice in a bit and my aunt's here and so are her friends so i must socialize!!

why not??

twilight was not amazing.
i had to tell this poor boy some horrible news and i feel extremely bad and its not even really my fault. and i wish i could just do what cousinman says and not care and shrug it off but i can't and i really don't want this one poor girl to get hurt which is super weird cuz she hates me and i should extremely dislike her but i don't. she did me wrong but i really don't want her to get hurt. and were not even friends i dont even know her last name. i don't understand why im so upset about this but i am. if you can explain i'd love to hear it. or read it hint hint. good night all.

ay bay lay....

no matter how hard they try they cant take away our memories or change what we know in our hearts is right. We know what happened and honestly they never will understand if they don't listen or ask. I love you BayBay!!

quite the essay.

i was reading this book for school which, i am still reading and will be for quite some time, and it devoted a whole paragraph to the time in life when a child realizes that adults are not always right and often are just as confused as you are and it used an analogy about the god in your head crashing but i don't like or believe in that one so i have decided that it is like when your little balloon that you got for your birthday suddenly runs out of helium and doesn't float any more and you still play with it, then that sad day comes when you realize that you can't play with it anymore or your mother takes it from you and throws it away. That happened to me recently not exactly like that but you get my drift. you see this person i have been through quite a bit with and always thought of as a firm believer and a stand up for what is right kind of person. didn't stand up for their believes and another few actually tore down someone else' belief whom they know in the long run is right or i do at least. they had no biblical backing and they didn't want to hear the truth or really try the best ways to resolve the issue. they simply went with their assumptions and ran. now don't get me wrong I'm sure they firmly believe that they are right. at least they appear to. the first person in the story did nothing of the sorts and is really just following orders which i can not condemn. and truly i can not condemn the others either. their behavior is going to drive me insane but there is nothing i personally can do because they wouldn't listen to me if i tried. so i say all that to say this.

1. don't believe everything you hear
2. if you truly wanna know whats going on go.
3. don't worry so much about what people are going to think Jesus was an outcast.
4. when life gives you water plant a rose garden. =]
I love you all and i hope you know who you are and don't assume your someone your not. welp gotsta get my sleep on tootaloo! =]

spitting on my goldfish

if you could please please please pray for summer 2009 thats all you need to pray for ill explain more in time but please. dont worry it isn't bad at all! in fact it is quite wonderous!! love you all and thanks for reading if you do. sorry ive been slightly emo lately dont know what got into me! but im better! well shower. love you guys again!

beastmode

just thought i would let you all know we won! were going to state!

tromboure

drama competition today at lee highschool! performing at one! prayers please! love you guys!

im in love.

i love this girl! shes is amazing! she fixed my boy issue with ease and now i must go fix her's! i love you all! peace and love!

sockandbuskin

i dont know what to do about boys except leave it to God. we talk about it alot lately. prayers please?? i dont know what i want or what He wants for me. i dont think im a usually cookie. we'll see how this pans out cuz i have no clue how it will end. if the whole worlds a stage and my life is a movie i must not have as big a role as i thought since i never got a script, and im not very good with improve. but i have the greatest director no amount of money can buy. love you guys thanks for reading my thoughts and metaphors!