man, so we went to the carnival.
now im
feelin as though i might puke
my head is killing me
my nose hurts
my throat hurts
here's my advice
dont go to a carnival with a cold.
got to hang out with bethany though
it was fun
im glad to be
home.
love you guys
dude.
carinival.
amazing.
havent been yet.
plan on goin.
try not to talk
when theres
nothing
to say.
love you
all
maybe.
ha
ha
ha.
always follow God's will you wont be disapointed. God will never give you anything you cant handle. he makes sure that you are ready for something to happen before it ever will. everything happens in his time if you happen to be going through something that just has you beaten down to where you can hardly think just think about God with all your might and ask him to take it away and if you truly want him to he will. that is what i feel like saying right now so if you are reading this i hope you will trust God in all you do and that you will know that it is his will and i hope you will look up and find your answer above the clouds because that is always the right answer. life's a test and God is our answer key. its an open book test. why not use your book??
ba da da ba ba im lovin life!
haha good times. i figure i will type when im not sad cuz i tend to only write then lately. but nope things are great i have a real hard test tomorrow in chemistry but johns gonna help me study for that tomorrow. so yep hope you guys all had wonderful days!! i got in trouble a couple times from my heavenly daddy for not paying attention and stuff like that but other than that i was a good kid! haha my uncle helped with three really hard math problems over the phone and he had to figure out how to do them first. he is real smart. my cousin jennifer is having her baby tomorrow. her name's gonna be kinsley michelle im pretty sure. i know for sure its kinsley not postitive about the rest. i will be at church tomorrow to support my bay! welp ttyl gotsa get ready for bed which reminds me i got real cute pj's!! i think we should have a lockin so i can wear them haha!! love you guys thanks for reading my rambles!!
my parentals are my greatest blessing. they will always be there for me no matter what i do or how bad i screw things up. i am proud to look like them and to carry on their DNA. even though we disagree i only have a few more years in this stage of life and i want to have the best times i can before i have to move on/out.haha. i know they will voice their opinons when they think i shouldnt do something with my life but if it is truly my desire they will support me or at least deal with it. love you both.
two of my greatest role models! they are the people who have showed me that mariage is a blessing aside from my parents of course they are amazing. i know i can come to them with anything and they will support me as long as it is God's will. love you guys.
i cant wait to work with codykins again! he is a blast to act with and a fantasmagorical friend!!! and i really like this picture!!!!me and him are going to perform the funky musicology song for a drama competition in november!!
so i had a wonderful day! and i thought i would show you guys some edits i did on some grand photography of momma b's!!
what do you do when someone is lying across from you crying their eyes out for something you and they cant help???
Take a look at the mountain
Stretching a mile high
Take a look at the ocean
Far as your eye can see
And think of me
Take a look at the desert
Do you feel like a grain of sand?
I am with you wherever
Where you go is where I am
And I'm always thinking of you
Take a look around you
I'm spelling it out one by one
I love you more than the sun
And the stars that I taught how to shine
You are mine and you shine for me too
I love you
Yesterday
And today
And tomorrow
I'll say it again and again
I love you more
Just a face in the city
Just a tear on a crowded street
But you are one in a million
And you belong to me
And I want you to know
I'm not letting go
Even when you come undone
I love you more than the sun
And the stars that I taught how to shine
You are mine and you shine for me too
I love you
Yesterday
And today
And tomorrow
I'll say it again and again
I love you more
I love you more
Shine for me
Shine for me
Shine on, shine on
Shine for me
I love you more than the sun
And the stars that I taught how to shine
You are mine and you shine for me too
I love you
Yesterday
And today
And tomorrow
I'll say it again and again
I love you more
so as you all know parker left and so we got a new teacher and we will call her leader. so i didnt really get along with leader cuz i didnt like her teaching style very much but i felt as though God was telling me to get to know her more so i asked if i could stay in her room during my PE (her planning) she agreed and so we were talking and i mentioned wanting to be a camp counsler at centrifuge and she got this shocked and excited look on her face. apparently she has been a counsler there for the past two years. so we talked about that for a good minute. she said it looked really good if a past counsler recomended you so she said she would recomend me when i turned 21!! that is the age you have to be. well love you all hopefully i will see you at 5!!!!
macdaddy keeps asking me whats wrong. and well here we go. im not really going to say exactly whats wrong but i will tell you why i havent really shared much about it. if you read one post that said:
"today was not the best day in my high school career and im okay with that i wasent as bummed out as i thought i was i actually was oober nice even though i was incredibly not happy. i thought it was cool that i wasent even thinking about being nice or what to do it just kina happened and i realized later that was all God...i myself am big on challenges most things if you tell me i am not capable of doing something i have to prove you wrong. on most things not if you said for example bet you cant run six miles i would just agree with you. but i think that if people really saw God's love then that would over power the easy factor and just make it that much cooler. so lets show God's love shall we?? love you all! night."
well while i was typing that a voice in my head said "its going to be alot harder now." and i just said umm kay then He said "he's watching you type this and is going to make it harder." (second he being satan.)which of course creeped me out i mean come on you would be creeped out by that too. i always knew he was there but that confirmed it. so that is what he is doing. but me and God are buliding trust in everyday things not just the "big" stuff like you know my life and money and such. for example the other night i was the only one up in my room and few people know im real scared of what goes bump in the night you could say and i didnt want to do something i had to like walk by my closet or turn my back on my shower, something like that. and God told me to trust him and i stood straight up and did whichever it was and went and laid down face down without a worry of something getting my back and He said thats my girl and i was soo proud of myself for trusting him to save me and i was proud he was proud. then we were performing our skit and i was at the alter kneeling waiting for "Jesus" to come and raise Melia from the "dead" and i thought my shirt was coming up and exposing my back and He said "its not dont move you'll draw attention to yourself." so i didnt for a good minute then i checked (this was b4 the bumbs in the night) so i was not proud. but were dealin. i feel bad because satan is attacking my friends and that affects me more than him attacking me which he knows apparently. but yeah the bathtub is about to over flow so i will ttyl*!! love you all!!
*that means Talk To Ya'll Later momma B!! haha
so your never gonna guess what happened in my life i got this invitation from People to People,(an organization that sends youth to other countries and you live with a family from there and all that.) to go to AUSTRALIA this summer!!! ima get to hug a koala bear!! haha anyway im gonna have to raise a ton of money so if you have any great money raising ideas or wish to donate that would be miraculous! love you all!!
dont ya hate it when somewhere you believe in makes you feel bad about believing in them?? some things just dont make sense any more.
im worried about joshua. he hasent replied in three days. he usually responds atleast five times a day if not more. pray for him and me please.
today was not the best day in my high school career and im okay with that i wasent as bummed out as i thought i was i actually was oober nice even though i was incredibly not happy. i thought it was cool that i wasent even thinking about being nice or what to do it just kina happened and i realized later that was all God and another thing is if you read BB's blog then you know about her knew post which made me think about how people dont really listen to each other because their emotions and pride over power them. also i was talking to a bff of mine and she was telling me that a couple freshman have started to like the boy in her story and despite her warnings still do and it made me realize that not being able to have something is what draws many people to that very thing. i think that is why alot of people dont have an intrest in Christ is because they can have it and it isnt a challenge i myself am big on challenges most things if you tell me i am not capable of doing something i have to prove you wrong. on most things not if you said for example bet you cant run six miles i would just agree with you. but i think that if people really saw God's love then that would over power the easy factor and just make it that much cooler. so lets show God's love shall we?? love you all! night.
NIKKI
You Have Your Emotions in Check |
 You are an incredibly stable and happy person. Ever consider being a therapist? You have figured out how to keep a positive outlook, no matter what. You don't have an easier life than anyone else. You just have figured things out a little more. |
BB this CRACKED me up!! remind you of anyone?? you too macdaddy!
You Should Play the Saxophone |
 You are charismatic, friendly, and very uninhibited. You have a lot of personal expression to bring your music. Improvisational and informal, you can't deal with an instrument that has too many rules or complexities. You are much more interested in creating unique solos than immersing yourself in music theory. You have a lot of style, and you definitely are one smooth operator. And while you may not play perfectly, no one's going to accuse you of being boring. Your dominant personality characteristic: being very outgoing Your secondary personality characteristic: your flair for the unique and dramatic |
You Are 56% Open Minded |
 You are a very open minded person, but you're also well grounded. Tolerant and flexible, you appreciate most lifestyles and viewpoints. But you also know where you stand firm, and you can draw that line. You're open to considering every possibility - but in the end, you stand true to yourself. |
so me and neighbor gurl was chillin in my front yard area of life and i found that i can add ghetto to my list of accents! haha fun fun fun! and tonight when David Ring used the analogy about the football coach and God saying get down here and play for me i heard in my head God's voice sayin Nicole get down here and sing for me. haha love you all (ya'll)
ba-da-ba-ba-ba IM LOVIN IT
