every year i stay up late and look at our christmas tree and contemplate things. it is great i gotta say. this year i haven't stayed up yet but i still look at it all the time and it seems like every time i do i get sad and i just recently figured out why. i've come to the conclusion that it is because my big gurl is gradiating and maybe going off to college and next christmas will be incredibly different. it will be my last youth christmas musical, my senior year, my last year buying presents for all my highschool friends except for kaykay ofcourse cuz were going to california and getting an apartment together and were gonna cover the walls with movie posters and use lawn chairs for furniture and borrow butter from our neighbors!! haha(love you) This year is the first year in a long time that me and my fam are just the five of us for christmas. its odd. not in a bad way. things are changing i'm growing up and soon im gonna get attacked with college and i know that God will work things out and will put me where he wants me. right now i cant decide if i want to take a year off and go everywhere or go one place. or go at all well yeah ima go somewhere. welp love you guys!
Struggling
13 years ago
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I know what you mean...I'm just kinda a little...i don't know the right way to say it. Just zoned about what's coming up. It's all kinda blurry and anything could happen as much as I like to think I have it planned out. I told you I enjoyed James 4:14, and then I realized that my whole future could go anywhere. I'd like to be a pastor, but I also feel God pulling me to be a missionary. I'd also like to just travel around the U.S. town to town preaching and helping. Kinda like a mission trip to America. I have no idea where to go or what to do. We'll see where God takes our lives, and wherever that is, even into death, is best for us and most Glorifying to Him. :-)
Love you Nicole. I think I'm like...the only commenter on your blogs anymore. And you're one fo the few on mine.
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